Niks B'dayy! :))

Birthdays are those beautiful days in one’s life, where one wishes to have the biggest maddest celebrations, or the biggest presents. They are those days where one feels immensely loved and very special, the ones that are best spent with the people whom you love a lot or who love you to the core!

So here I am today to describe a bit for my very special sweetheart who, logistically speaking is not over here right NOW!!

Nik and me, we may not always be together but we are connected by heart. My “langotia” yaar she is. We don’t need many words to understand each other. We’ve perfectly formed out our own language of smiles, and winks, and frowns and whistles, of sniffs and huffs and sighs. We been together & separated and bumped into each other again. We’ve had our share of ups and downs, our tough moments, and our tests of friendship rather.

At first she might seem a girl, who doesn’t give a damn, sometimes kinda throwing attitude to guys around, a perfect combo of mock & wit, someone who sometimes may seem to be detached. But it’s when you perfectly know her you realize how much girly, soft-hearted and emotional a person can be. It’s like “It’s not that what you see is what it is always”.

This girl has been my strong pillar of support. She has taught me so many things in life. She made me realize that everyone in this world is not like we think and everything happening around may not always seem good, but it’s we who need to adjust to the different situations/circumstances/people in the best possible way. She’s this sweet girl who’ll hold my hand while crossing the road, who’s seated pillion behind a pathetic rider like me, who’s done all the crazy things for me, who criticizes me for being such a slow coach when it comes to eating, who yells at me when I do silly stewpid stuffs. Seeing her pissed off makes me lose my temper, seeing her cry brings tears in my eyes! (but it’s the vice versa in her case..lol) We both crack like madds. We talk about every crazy smallest thing in life.

We’ve don’t countless “paagalpanti” stuffs, have checked out every new shopping mall in a’bad, seen the shittiest of movies in cinema halls (Shaapit topping the list..I remember you tumbling down then after the flick..lol), dressed together to seek attention, discussed a hell on romance & dates & getting all cozy kinda stuffs. We would workout together. Workout days..damn those were the best spent days – the GOLDEN DAYS, I say. We jogged and talked, danced and talked, stretched our body parts on beena mam’s counts and talked. Talking always was so much fun, we never ran out of topic, had discussed on life, clothes, GUYS, careers, jokes, happiness, marriage, movies, gossips, family, EVERYTHING!! Simply everything!

She’s today treading on her path of phenomenal success, has almost found her love after really long, and i couldn’t be happier for her than ever.

Nik sweets, I miss you..i miss you today when I want to talk about random things and you aint here. You’ve made such a huge impact in my life. Thanks for always being there by my side though my thick & thins. Thanks for understanding me in the best way. Thanks for goading me for every little thing. Thanks for pushing me, for telling me to march forward in life with my head held high. Thanks for being the BEST-EST-EST-EST person in my life!!

On your birthday, I just have to say, I am now and will always be there through every fight, every sorrow, every happiness, every heartbreak, and every struggle. And that promise of both of us getting married in the same family still remains.

Have a supa funn birthday!
Love ya tonnz,

Bhakti

A distant Phone Call

It was one of those dull days, when you feel like not doing anything and chillaxing at home. One of those days when you start feeling low on recalling something, you feel lonely and you want a buddy to “talk” to, to share a few incidents, to pour your heart out.

So that evening mum all decked up for a party asked me “Why are you still lying on your bed girl?? Get up! It’s our family friend’s daughter’s engagement. They want you to remain present!”. “You can leave mamma.” I will be joining you and papa ‘after a while’ She closes the front door, exits the house and gets into the car with dad to leave. It was now when I could hear my loneliness clearer than ever. I climbed upstairs to the terrace along with my cell phone. The approach of King Winter was causing everything to grow dark. Thinking nothing, I decided to scroll down my list of contacts in the phone, wishing that atleast one would click with whom I could just crack & be myself. After sometime I realized I couldn’t call up most of my friends since some would have been busy with their girlfriends or boyfriends or their family, and some I had stopped talking to. “What a wastage of memory it is!” I thought.

I simply stood staring at the sky & not willing to budge. Suddenly my phone screeched loud. It was some unknown number flashing on the miniature screen. I picked up the call. “Yello beautiful, I want to do FRANDHSHIP with you..!!” It said.“What the crap” I said, “Who’s that”. The voice repeated, “Bhaktiii, I say please be my friend!” An irritated me asked the chap to hang up or else i’d box him hard for his guts!

Suddenly I hear a laugh, “Wait yaa girl..its me Chandni. Calling from nasik. How are you?! And between this one’s my new number yaa. Better jot it down!” She sounded super happy and made me chuckle too. For some reasons I kept smiling & felt ludicrously happy on hearing her voice.“Hi sweetie, M doing super great. How come you remembered me? Wassup” I said. “Sweets I just wanted to talk to you. I went for this movie you suggested – Golmaal and had an absolute fun. I love your taste when it comes to bollywood masala flicks" Unlike many of my friends who were just good at criticizing me, she was this one sweetheart who would shower compliments & show affection at times when I needed the most – accidently though!

I felt so damn energetic at the end of the conversation, was all charged up and ready to join in ma & paa at the engagement party. I felt really glad and special when she chose me off her contacts. I was jus left smiling at nothing, thinking how whimsical a man can be..sad at one moment, angry at next, and happy at the very next. I realized that nothing in the world lasts forever. Happiness may be transient, but so does sadness. I put on one of my favorite outfits & left for the function enthusiastically.

P.S. This article is dedicated to one of my closest friends with whom I share a strange yet a very great bond – Chandni Kriplani

Languish

I long for you..in my thought
In the center of my soul
I yearn for that one look, that affection in your eyes
Those lil surprises that make me smile


I yearn for that tender assuring touch,
The safe warmth of your arms round my neck
Or one big tight hug


I yearn for you to just stand by me holding my hand


In those busy times,
All I want is a text with a smiley from you
All I wish is that you remember me,
No regrets if we can’t be
I just wish for a happy you
And that i mean to you much more than mere a poesy

Sunshine! :)

I am the little sunshine,
And he is my prism wall..
I break into my colors,
Upon him as i fall..
:)

LIKES!! :D

Getting up in the morning, and looking at myself in the mirror, even though I’ve cried the entire night. Smiling..simply smiling in a manner that makes my eyes look tinier than before but a glow still visible.

To try placing feet in the lil tiles at my home, in my office, on the terrace or at any damn place. It reminds me of some game I played in my childhood.

Playing with dogs, no matter whomsoever it actually belongs to. Talking to them and loving them see when they tilt their heads with their most adorable eyes widened, as if confused or kinda stupefied on how much humans speak!

Crying in romantic flicks..or crying when feeling low, or crying after a fight or an argument with a loved one on phone..sometimes crying for no reason. And then checking out myself how my face resembles with that of some de-glamorized heroine. Crying lets my grief come out and helps me come back to normal.

Drama..Sometimes its fun being a “Drama Queen” when surrounded by people whom you love. They are ones after all who are supposed to actually jhelofy all the so-called “nakhras & nautanki”, and yet love you to the core.

Long drives at late evenings on a tough rugged manly bike. Enjoying the cool breeze and the thrill of speed.

Reading stuffs related to astrology. I believe I am truly Arien!

Getting up in the midnight, checking my cell phone and realizing I still have hours to sleep.

Connecting with God, even if it just for few milliseconds. Its great when to feel HIS hand above you. It helps me to become calm.

Havmor Choco-chip ice cream cone..and these days in winter. I believe to have one when the craving just goes beyond control.

Romance. Dreaming of romance. Seeing romance on screen. Reading romance in books. The very thought of a lover’s hand round the neck, those cheeks touch in admiration, a warm hug , one assuring touch makes me feel good.

That look you give to your best friend and try to control a laugh on seeing something funny.

Discussing ghost stories with my mum, and making her forcefully sit in front of the idiot box to hear about such spooky incidents. God she gets freaked out to the core.

Myself, i love myself for being naughty, over-smart, lazy, foolish, attention seeking, stupid, jealous, confident, impulsive, bit selfish at times, just the way I AM!!

Perfect Together :)

The zig zags in you
Would fit into the zig zags of mine,
And that is how an imperfect you
And an imperfect me
Would be perfect when Combined

I'd be really glad if you wouldn't be perfect
Since am glad that neither am I
Perfect Together..
That'd be the reason Why!! :)

Love-And-Hatred!

I was loving it then,
When you looked into my eyes and spoke

I was loving it then,
When you held my hand so tight, I could crack

Oh I was so loving it,
And now it seems so long since then
But still, I can keep a track!

But slowly things started to change..

Slowly things started to change,
When you made those moments rationalize
How sad was that change,
When your lips made efforts to make things look fine

But still it was so weird..
That I couldn’t make myself realize!

Its become painful now,
When my eyes search for you but would neva see you simply..

And its become painful now,
When you’ve become so distant and not just physically..
Such bad is the pain..
When you have left me and you think very smartly

But this pain, it actually doesn’t really matter to me,
Wot once mattered
Wot really, really mattered,
Was YOU actually..!!

I’ve realized we’ll never end up together,
I’ve realized we’ll never make it any better,

I’ve realized you make me feel so low,
I’ve realized we’ll drift apart with time even more,
And I’ll make myself simply let go..

I’ve realized that sometimes you simply pretend in front of me,
I’ve realized we’ll never even start together,
forget be..

But the truth is..
I’ll never love you any lesser!

The truth is..
I’ve never felt like this ever before!

The truth is..
Those moments will be my unforgettable memories!