Christmas Twinkles!!

Temperatures drop down and the Jack Frost does his rounds

Millions of Twinkles all over the grounds

Not just the Santa, the presents, his ride or reindeer

But a few instant smiles that spread the contagious festive cheer

Kiddos collect and form the snow into a pile

And the twinkle again ensures that every Snowman wears a smile

No matter young or old or whatever you say

This bright twinkle is contagious to anybody on their way

To some Christmas may be a cause of struggle and strife

But it’s actually a twinkle that strengthens ones belief in Love, Magic, Dreams and Life!

Niks B'dayy! :))

Birthdays are those beautiful days in one’s life, where one wishes to have the biggest maddest celebrations, or the biggest presents. They are those days where one feels immensely loved and very special, the ones that are best spent with the people whom you love a lot or who love you to the core!

So here I am today to describe a bit for my very special sweetheart who, logistically speaking is not over here right NOW!!

Nik and me, we may not always be together but we are connected by heart. My “langotia” yaar she is. We don’t need many words to understand each other. We’ve perfectly formed out our own language of smiles, and winks, and frowns and whistles, of sniffs and huffs and sighs. We been together & separated and bumped into each other again. We’ve had our share of ups and downs, our tough moments, and our tests of friendship rather.

At first she might seem a girl, who doesn’t give a damn, sometimes kinda throwing attitude to guys around, a perfect combo of mock & wit, someone who sometimes may seem to be detached. But it’s when you perfectly know her you realize how much girly, soft-hearted and emotional a person can be. It’s like “It’s not that what you see is what it is always”.

This girl has been my strong pillar of support. She has taught me so many things in life. She made me realize that everyone in this world is not like we think and everything happening around may not always seem good, but it’s we who need to adjust to the different situations/circumstances/people in the best possible way. She’s this sweet girl who’ll hold my hand while crossing the road, who’s seated pillion behind a pathetic rider like me, who’s done all the crazy things for me, who criticizes me for being such a slow coach when it comes to eating, who yells at me when I do silly stewpid stuffs. Seeing her pissed off makes me lose my temper, seeing her cry brings tears in my eyes! (but it’s the vice versa in her case..lol) We both crack like madds. We talk about every crazy smallest thing in life.

We’ve don’t countless “paagalpanti” stuffs, have checked out every new shopping mall in a’bad, seen the shittiest of movies in cinema halls (Shaapit topping the list..I remember you tumbling down then after the flick..lol), dressed together to seek attention, discussed a hell on romance & dates & getting all cozy kinda stuffs. We would workout together. Workout days..damn those were the best spent days – the GOLDEN DAYS, I say. We jogged and talked, danced and talked, stretched our body parts on beena mam’s counts and talked. Talking always was so much fun, we never ran out of topic, had discussed on life, clothes, GUYS, careers, jokes, happiness, marriage, movies, gossips, family, EVERYTHING!! Simply everything!

She’s today treading on her path of phenomenal success, has almost found her love after really long, and i couldn’t be happier for her than ever.

Nik sweets, I miss you..i miss you today when I want to talk about random things and you aint here. You’ve made such a huge impact in my life. Thanks for always being there by my side though my thick & thins. Thanks for understanding me in the best way. Thanks for goading me for every little thing. Thanks for pushing me, for telling me to march forward in life with my head held high. Thanks for being the BEST-EST-EST-EST person in my life!!

On your birthday, I just have to say, I am now and will always be there through every fight, every sorrow, every happiness, every heartbreak, and every struggle. And that promise of both of us getting married in the same family still remains.

Have a supa funn birthday!
Love ya tonnz,

Bhakti

A distant Phone Call

It was one of those dull days, when you feel like not doing anything and chillaxing at home. One of those days when you start feeling low on recalling something, you feel lonely and you want a buddy to “talk” to, to share a few incidents, to pour your heart out.

So that evening mum all decked up for a party asked me “Why are you still lying on your bed girl?? Get up! It’s our family friend’s daughter’s engagement. They want you to remain present!”. “You can leave mamma.” I will be joining you and papa ‘after a while’ She closes the front door, exits the house and gets into the car with dad to leave. It was now when I could hear my loneliness clearer than ever. I climbed upstairs to the terrace along with my cell phone. The approach of King Winter was causing everything to grow dark. Thinking nothing, I decided to scroll down my list of contacts in the phone, wishing that atleast one would click with whom I could just crack & be myself. After sometime I realized I couldn’t call up most of my friends since some would have been busy with their girlfriends or boyfriends or their family, and some I had stopped talking to. “What a wastage of memory it is!” I thought.

I simply stood staring at the sky & not willing to budge. Suddenly my phone screeched loud. It was some unknown number flashing on the miniature screen. I picked up the call. “Yello beautiful, I want to do FRANDHSHIP with you..!!” It said.“What the crap” I said, “Who’s that”. The voice repeated, “Bhaktiii, I say please be my friend!” An irritated me asked the chap to hang up or else i’d box him hard for his guts!

Suddenly I hear a laugh, “Wait yaa girl..its me Chandni. Calling from nasik. How are you?! And between this one’s my new number yaa. Better jot it down!” She sounded super happy and made me chuckle too. For some reasons I kept smiling & felt ludicrously happy on hearing her voice.“Hi sweetie, M doing super great. How come you remembered me? Wassup” I said. “Sweets I just wanted to talk to you. I went for this movie you suggested – Golmaal and had an absolute fun. I love your taste when it comes to bollywood masala flicks" Unlike many of my friends who were just good at criticizing me, she was this one sweetheart who would shower compliments & show affection at times when I needed the most – accidently though!

I felt so damn energetic at the end of the conversation, was all charged up and ready to join in ma & paa at the engagement party. I felt really glad and special when she chose me off her contacts. I was jus left smiling at nothing, thinking how whimsical a man can be..sad at one moment, angry at next, and happy at the very next. I realized that nothing in the world lasts forever. Happiness may be transient, but so does sadness. I put on one of my favorite outfits & left for the function enthusiastically.

P.S. This article is dedicated to one of my closest friends with whom I share a strange yet a very great bond – Chandni Kriplani

Languish

I long for you..in my thought
In the center of my soul
I yearn for that one look, that affection in your eyes
Those lil surprises that make me smile


I yearn for that tender assuring touch,
The safe warmth of your arms round my neck
Or one big tight hug


I yearn for you to just stand by me holding my hand


In those busy times,
All I want is a text with a smiley from you
All I wish is that you remember me,
No regrets if we can’t be
I just wish for a happy you
And that i mean to you much more than mere a poesy

Sunshine! :)

I am the little sunshine,
And he is my prism wall..
I break into my colors,
Upon him as i fall..
:)

LIKES!! :D

Getting up in the morning, and looking at myself in the mirror, even though I’ve cried the entire night. Smiling..simply smiling in a manner that makes my eyes look tinier than before but a glow still visible.

To try placing feet in the lil tiles at my home, in my office, on the terrace or at any damn place. It reminds me of some game I played in my childhood.

Playing with dogs, no matter whomsoever it actually belongs to. Talking to them and loving them see when they tilt their heads with their most adorable eyes widened, as if confused or kinda stupefied on how much humans speak!

Crying in romantic flicks..or crying when feeling low, or crying after a fight or an argument with a loved one on phone..sometimes crying for no reason. And then checking out myself how my face resembles with that of some de-glamorized heroine. Crying lets my grief come out and helps me come back to normal.

Drama..Sometimes its fun being a “Drama Queen” when surrounded by people whom you love. They are ones after all who are supposed to actually jhelofy all the so-called “nakhras & nautanki”, and yet love you to the core.

Long drives at late evenings on a tough rugged manly bike. Enjoying the cool breeze and the thrill of speed.

Reading stuffs related to astrology. I believe I am truly Arien!

Getting up in the midnight, checking my cell phone and realizing I still have hours to sleep.

Connecting with God, even if it just for few milliseconds. Its great when to feel HIS hand above you. It helps me to become calm.

Havmor Choco-chip ice cream cone..and these days in winter. I believe to have one when the craving just goes beyond control.

Romance. Dreaming of romance. Seeing romance on screen. Reading romance in books. The very thought of a lover’s hand round the neck, those cheeks touch in admiration, a warm hug , one assuring touch makes me feel good.

That look you give to your best friend and try to control a laugh on seeing something funny.

Discussing ghost stories with my mum, and making her forcefully sit in front of the idiot box to hear about such spooky incidents. God she gets freaked out to the core.

Myself, i love myself for being naughty, over-smart, lazy, foolish, attention seeking, stupid, jealous, confident, impulsive, bit selfish at times, just the way I AM!!

Perfect Together :)

The zig zags in you
Would fit into the zig zags of mine,
And that is how an imperfect you
And an imperfect me
Would be perfect when Combined

I'd be really glad if you wouldn't be perfect
Since am glad that neither am I
Perfect Together..
That'd be the reason Why!! :)

Love-And-Hatred!

I was loving it then,
When you looked into my eyes and spoke

I was loving it then,
When you held my hand so tight, I could crack

Oh I was so loving it,
And now it seems so long since then
But still, I can keep a track!

But slowly things started to change..

Slowly things started to change,
When you made those moments rationalize
How sad was that change,
When your lips made efforts to make things look fine

But still it was so weird..
That I couldn’t make myself realize!

Its become painful now,
When my eyes search for you but would neva see you simply..

And its become painful now,
When you’ve become so distant and not just physically..
Such bad is the pain..
When you have left me and you think very smartly

But this pain, it actually doesn’t really matter to me,
Wot once mattered
Wot really, really mattered,
Was YOU actually..!!

I’ve realized we’ll never end up together,
I’ve realized we’ll never make it any better,

I’ve realized you make me feel so low,
I’ve realized we’ll drift apart with time even more,
And I’ll make myself simply let go..

I’ve realized that sometimes you simply pretend in front of me,
I’ve realized we’ll never even start together,
forget be..

But the truth is..
I’ll never love you any lesser!

The truth is..
I’ve never felt like this ever before!

The truth is..
Those moments will be my unforgettable memories!

As two people talk..

As two people talk,
Whenever they meet..
It's not just their voices
That speak..

Over the thin wall
That stands in-between,
There are two people
Communicating..

The twinkle,
The smile,
And a constant warm gaze,
Tell a different story in the meanwhile..

Slight shyness,
Some urge,
And a little hesitation
Make a silent dialog run parallel with the Conversation..

Thus as two people talk whenever they meet,
Its not just their voices that speak..

Over the thin wall that stands in-between,
There are two people Communicating..

LOVE is a huge word!!

We often sit & think about how it would be to be in Love, what it is actually like being in Love, is it actually good or bad to deeply passionately Love somebody, is it really good to care for somebody more than you care for yourself, most importantly is that what you feel is Love only - and not those loose physical attractions or infatuations..

Define the four-letter word LOVE-
“Love- It’s a great feeling. It makes you feel great. The very thought of being in love with someone is great, sharing special precious moments, sharing talks, sharing life. Doing crazy things together, fighting over small small topics & then setting your so-called ego aside & surrendering to your partner, making memories and then being together to remember those memories. Laugh over them, cry over them. Seems its all the great good things you feel! You close your eyes, you see him and smile at the very thought of him. You are so very sure that you love him to the core..You love that person more than yourself..more than anything else..any of your possessions..
Isn’t it??
Think again..

Love is not that simple..
Imagine your love is unwell for a while. Is unable to move out of bed..So sick that need care & attention all the time. Need you, your entire time. Will you be there?? Will you be there all the time, time till they become very fine?? You know there’ll be vomit. Will you be ready to move closer to their back to pat them & to make it easy for them?? Or would you simply jump back with a disgusted look? Will you clean their vomit? Will be there sitting beside their bed whole night jus to ensure that they sleep properly? Will you be there to wake up in the middle of the night to give them medicine? Will you caryy them to the bathroom no matter how tired you are? Will you be there to provide help during any time of the day or night? To make something as small as tea or coffee or a bowl of soup even at 3 A.M? Will you be patient? Will you still experience that love you imagined earlier when you closed your eyes & saw his/her face? Does it still seem pretty?Or do you leave them to deal with their sickness alone?? Are you strong enough? Is your love string enough? Are you ready to sacrifice for them- sacrifice everything for a while & just be with them – sacrifice your time, money, job, friends, comfort, relaxation, life? Can you?? Are you strong enough? Is your love strong enough?? ? It's not easy and not everyone can do it.
Think again. Think hard. Be sure.

Everything in LOVE is not happy. & great. There are testing moments always thrown in between. To test your affection, To test your promise, Your strength., Your support. Moments that test your love, that test YOU!! You can not say that you love someone because you feel like spending nice time with them, because you have fun with them all the while. You can not say you love someone because you want to see the world with them. When you realize that you can be with someone and be there for them always, no matter what, no matter what other things demand, then it's “TRUE LOVE”. When you know that no force in the world can break the promise you made, then it's “TRUE LOVE”. When doing something for the one you love gives you a pleasure, unmatched to when your most cherished dream came true, then it's “TRUE LOVE”. When that tiniest twinkle in the eyes of the one you love gives you immense happiness, makes you forget all your worries & sorrows, then it’s “TRUE LOVE”. When amidst all the gloom, you are able to smile, smile for them, to make them feel well, then that's “TRUE LOVE”. When you derive pleasure by surrendering to the one you love, then that is “TRUE LOVE”.

So if you think you are in love, always think about the other side of love as well. Think different. Feel different. Evolve Continuously. Experience something greater. Love differently!!